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My mind feels like its a million miles away. The teacher is speaking but all I hear is a monotone muted noise passing through my ears. I hear the sound of the clock slowly ticking, tick, tick, tick......My back starts to ache due to old stiff plastic chairs, that have been sitting in these tiny musty white walled cells, they call classrooms, for way to long. I am sure my dad sat in these very chairs over 20 years ago. My eyes wonder from wall to wall searching for something anything to entertain my mind for a few seconds. My hand grabs a pen and starts to doodle aimlessly. I catch myself writing "what am I doing?, what am I going to do?Father, what does thou want me to do?" As I write the last question my mind snaps back into reality and my soul starts hungering for answers. Graduation is right around the corner and I am still clueless. I seek for direction, guidance, answers. A job, further education, kids??? The long hand finally hits 12; students grab there packs and head for the door. My thoughts rapidly escape and I carelessly toss my stuff into my pack and follow the crowd to the door. Up next, spanish class.
oh my dearest nichole. how this feeling haunts us all. answers will come, i promise :) love you, hang in there ;)
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